ADD or...

Gray hairs, our cleaning lady, ravioli, child support, homework, my fat belly...I can't seem to focus on one topic to write about. They're all important in my mind. Maybe that's the problem. I've been obsessed with ADD lately. I've had the suspicion that I have it and from everything I've been researching and reading, I fall into "yes" category. My analyst thinks maybe, but then again most Americans have some sort of ADD, he says and It's true. It just depends on the degree or severity. I've been reading this great book, Scattered, by Dr. Gabor Mate. Who didn't realize he had ADD until his 40's. And he was practicing doctor. My obsession of course has to do with being a parent and passing this down to my kids. Apparently, my family disposition (genes) is primed for this: depression, alcoholism, addictive tendencies, etc.

My journey has been to better myself and to be the best parent I can be, or the best MODEL for my family that I can be. This can be tough when I have to follow through on tasks that I can't complete and then expect others (my kids)to do better. I've come to realize that it's all a work in progress. Just like the Theatre, there is an organic process and you have to trust yourself. So, I believe I'm off to another project. Maybe I will practice my bass for the shows I have with Suzi this weekend or I will...